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cyberkiss2uu · 1 year ago

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yayy its almost the end of 2023!! this year was huge for my art growth and its so awesome to look back on everything.. this was super fun 2 make and not only serves as a memory for this year's art and my interests but to my closest irl and online friends who were with me the whole way ^_^

happy new year!! heres to more growth and fun :-)

#happy new year #art gallery #digital artist #artists on tumblr #jammy sona #self portrait #look at my kitty her name is olive #this year was super hard for me between moving and not being able to start college or have a job #so i did a lot of physical work for my parents #and it left me exhausted and with very very little time to draw #and i was like 1000 miles from all my friends suddenly #so i was also super depressed this year #but being able to look back at it and see the small pockets of happiness i found was great #next year ill be starting college and hopefully finding a job so ill be busy then too #but maybe ill feel better about it :-) idk #art will always be a part of me i dont think any circumstances could keep me from creating art #this is getting deep i gotta go #phew happy new years everybody

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moeblob · 22 days ago

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"Still alive in 2025, time to make it everyone else's problem"

#my characters #oops i fell in love #i love my sons and i actually finally shared the Deep Lore of where i based there looks with someone #for the first time and then was like yeah speaking of their design inspiration neither of the guys was my favorite #and if that isnt super telling of who i am as a person ... wrow #also welcoming in the new year with my sons mr depression and mr anxiety woohoo #i hate coloring and im super torn on if this was even worth the time but whatever my hand is cramping fierce now #so im committed to posting and perishing

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waspgrave · 2 months ago

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now there was no reason for lucanis to be given purple johnny silverhand as a plot point and then never have the purple johnny silverhand utilized except for maybe 3 or 4 times in the game (if you saved Treviso, otherwise it's twice) and dialogue. Dialogue where he pretty much just says weird and funny things and occasionally gets scolded like a dog which is entertaining sure but there is Literally A Demon In One Of The Companions Why Is This Not A Bigger Deal

#i think i've pinpointed what annoys me about the treviso vs minrathrous thing #it's not that neve or lucanis get mad at you but that you can't like. fix it. or talk about it.#you get 'punished' for picking one and it feels like it should be Worse #lucanis Especially winds up suffering in content bc of it and he's already hurting with content as it is #but apparently according to m kirby he never stops feeling betrayed which is valid #but why can't we fix it? or confront it? Why can't we have a rival situation? or see the effects of spite bc of it.#bc the Hardened thing is literally Nothing on both of them lmao oh no they wont heal me i guess #this man should be pissed at me and apparently he always was? despite us being friends? sort of? by the end?#like it's not even that Lucanis gets Mad at me (wish he'd show it) it's that this is a bioware game and i should be able to confront this #but no. just a choice where ultimately nothing happens but a map change and you don't get a mission/certain cutscenes #and lucanis or neve will go 'i'm doing this and you don't get a say' like ok that's fine and deserved #i just think spite should've potentially taken over lucanis more in a rival situation bc he's so hurt by the worst year of his life #and spite should be gnawing at the bit because this and the rest of the horrors pisses lucanis off #i also think neve should've tried blood magic for funsies esp if she becomes super determined to protect Dock Town but whateverr #i know these tags are slightly off topic but the point is SPITE SHOULDVE BEEN USED MOREEEE i'm so mad #honestly in my deluded hopes that this was going to be truly Bioware i thought Lucanis was going to have an anders situation #and spite would be more in control even if it's still Lucanis. just more volatile and sad.#and maybe it was going to be difficult but the idea that you could've potentially saved him by proving you were going to be there for him #ughhhh it's so annoying and depressing. I do like veilguard i do but this is the moment my love for it waned a bit #like sorry i think Lucanis/Spite should've turned Illario's head into wine if you didn't save Treviso. I think he should be that messed up #but i also thought this was going to be a thing that was going to happen with more companions lol cries for what should have been #prawn posts #veilguard critical

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ettadunham · 4 months ago

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sometimes i remember the hunger games and how nobody actually paid attention to what was in those books

#americans close your eyes and ears right now #i'm well aware that my political takes are way too spicy for you all #and i really do wish my media diet didn't contain so much us-centric shit #but alas we're all suffering here #and i could say that 'oh actually it does matter who your president is for us in the world'#but it doesn't. it really fucking doesn't. that's kind of the point.#oh i'm sorry my spicy takes are already starting #anyway it is wild that you all can understand katniss assassinating coin at the end of mockingjay #but get super upsetty that chappell roan won't support your favorite presidential candidate with her full chest #like come on none of you actually thought that her using the phrase both sides meant that she was a republican or even a centrist #that's just copium #you all knew exactly what she meant #but i guess encouraging people to think critically and get involved with their local elections and politics as well is... bad now?#also... why do you all care so much about a random pop star's opinion and whether or not she dares to criticize a government #like... she's right but i'm sure 5 years from now if she survives in the limelight her edges will be completely chipped away #by all this insane reaction #and before anyone comes for me... no i'm not saying you shouldn't vote. please fucking do.#neither am i saying you shouldn't vote strategically or encourage other people to do so #but if all your energy is spent policing people who criticize your chosen party because of their own principles #then there's something seriously wrong with your politics #and all you're signalling is that you truly do not fucking care about the issues that they care about #if anything..... you RESENT them #and then the same people bring up the parable of the 'unjust man'#or how it's never the right time to talk about gun violence in your country #harm reduction is all good and based but attacking people who are leveraging their support to push your party left #is not. it's not even fucking helpful #anyway. don't base your lives and politics around pop stars.#even if they are more based than you 🤷#i think i'm done now thank you tumblr for letting me have insane rants in my tags that hopefully no one reads #idk i just find this all depressing. i wish you all cared more about the world outside of your bubble. i wish we all did - myself included.

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pa-pa-plasma · 4 months ago

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i don't think i'll ever get over how people treat kids that aren't good in school as worthless no matter what. "oh it can't be that bad" my guy idk how to tell you this but the last time i went to a normal high school the principal called me into his office to brag about how he failed me in all of my classes before the semester was even finished & i should quit while i'm ahead cuz i'm too stupid ("officially" diagnosed as such by a school counselor & a psychiatrist!!) to succeed. & this is considered normal

#''poor teachers!!'' yeah well at least they can fucking quit & go work somewhere else #''okay but times are different than when you went to school in the 1970's'' this was 2016 my guy. shut the fuck up #''well maybe you were a violent & severely misbehaving kid!'' i wasn't. i have ADHD & severe anxiety disorder & depression #my biggest crime was being too exhausted & dopamine deprived to do my homework #my dad talks about how he was treated in school & i'm like damn dude i went through the same exact shit #how is it that a majority of teachers & principals are still abusive power-tripping pieces of shit 60 years later #why haven't things changed #well actually the answer is simple & it's because they want disabled people to disappear #& if abled students that simply disagree with the way things are done get caught in the crossfire then that is acceptable #because anyone not fit to make billionaires a billion more dollars should just die!#anyways here are my original tags from that gravity falls post i just reblogged:#I know this is supposed to be an appreciation post but like. ''for being the ''dumb one'' he's surprisingly rational.'' seriously??#as ''the dumb'' but ''surprisingly rational'' one of my family this is THEE biggest misunderstanding & it drives me up the fucking wall #just because a person struggles in one area doesn't mean they're stupid & should be an irrational dumb dumb idiot baby holy fuckkk #sorry to OP but even when people try to ''appreciate'' stuff like this they can't help but throw in insults #simply because they genuinely believe that ''even though you're stupid you SURPRISINGLY act competent sometimes'' is a compliment #I'm less mad about this & more sad that this kind of shit is still so prevalent in 2024 #both Stanley & Stanford are smart & competent & rational #they just show it in different ways & exceed in different (sometimes overlapping) subjects #this is normal for human beings but the big societal scam is that if you don't do it in the way Ford does then you're stupid & a failure #& being surprised that Stan is also smart & competent in his own ways is the biggest sing that you fucking fell for it dude #btw before i get @ ed for this. i WAS that kid #i was so much that kid the school actually diagnosed me with stupid & spiteful & i was told to quit while i was ahead (they failed me befor #obviously this is very personal for me but also i don't think people realize the language they use is on purpose & it's used specifically t #& it's still happening right now & that just. makes me wanna cry honestly #like why are people still surprised that people can specialize in something despite bad grades in school #you know. the thing we all know is literally rigged to either put you in jail or in a factory to make billionaires more money.#man sorry for the rant the original spirit of the post is super correct but like fuck HS grade-centric judging of people's entire character #Stan being able to defeat Bill is just not at all surprising if you were him or knew/know someone like him #or really paid any attention at all to the show while watching it

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marc-spectorr · 1 year ago

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hi :)

#ive been super busy and depressed but im backkk #my new year’s resolution is to start writing again so here i am lol #im also gonna be catching up on A LOT of fics pls bear with me #hoping 2024 will be kind to you all <3

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shannonsketches · 5 months ago

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Putting 'geets is a cat' in my own tags has me laughing so hard thinking about how Bulma 'My Dad is an Avid Animal Rescuer' Briefs could probably circumvent Geets getting in the way during his 'I'm quitting fighting forever' phases by giving him his own little tasks to do that mimic hers

look at this little business man

#genuinely he was a commanding officer/lord and outside of battle most of his 25+ year career was probably just. Management.#with how messy bulma is geets is probably a major asset. I bet her lab/office is never more organized than when he's home #that said it is VERY funny to think that he was annoyingly rigid and getting in the way of Bulma's creative process at the beginning of #the 7 year gap so she just started giving him Very Important random busywork to stave off his depression but keep him out of her way #We know geets is also scientific and I hc he knows some basic mechanical engineering (to keep from falling victim to a ship breaking down)#nothing super advanced but enough to help out here and there and at least offer alien solutions to earthling tech problems #maybe she made him help her “fix” the gravity room and then test it out and that's how he started training again aw

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moookar · 7 months ago

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can i get some criticism on my gesture drawings? I struggle with motion in my art.

while i was drawing these, i figured out what people mean when they talk about muscles flowing in the pose. I just just figured that out though so i would definitely like tips on how to apply that etc

Reference photos taken from line-of-action.com

#Art criticism #art #I think once i figure out gesture for realsizes and can visualize the whole skeletal structure well (rn i can only really apply the skull)#i could consider myself an intermediate artist #I bet that’ll take a year?#somewhere around there #i’m excited for that personal milestone #Also currently super depressed so im hoping throwing myself into my art will help. If i dont have hope for my future at least i can have—#—hope that i can make nice shapes in a few months lmao #My medication has helped me wake up earlier but it hasn’t made me any less sad unfortunately #i just started it 2 months ago though so that might change #sorry for oversharing 😔

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chatdae · 9 months ago

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The Great Gatsby (1974) au where Gatsby doesn't die and instead Nick takes on the no-paying job of trying to get Jay to move on from Daisy.

Bad ending is Gatsby never does & he and the Buchanans become a never-ending shitshow. Good ending is Jay moves on. Super special bonus ending is Jay and Nick fall in love (toxicity optional)

#I specified the movie because I havent read the book so idk Book Nick or Book Jay I havent met them #the great gatsby #the great gatsby 1974 #the great gatsby (1974)#My favorite idea is a mix of the Good and Super Special Bonus endings #Where Gatsby moves on and spends a good few years learning to be a normal fucking human being #(ft Nick being a supportive friend (but also getting back to being normal after his summer of bullshit))#(and Jay figuring out how to have normal fucking relationships means he visits his dad in person more often :'3 )#anyway after 5 years or so Jay falls in love with Nick in a way that is Healthy and Not Obsessive #and the two of them become a Normal Healthy couple #which is of course difficult because. time period #but I like to imagine that Jay's dad is happy about it :']#also. assuming Jay doesnt go to jail for Crime. he's got enough money to basically deal with any problem #(if i had a nickel for every time i shipped a blond x brown-hair gay couple from the Great Depression i'd have two nickels)#(which isnt many but it's strange it's happened twice)#Also yeah I know this au of mine is Boring. dw I don't think toxic romance stories are Horrible or that fiction has model ideal behavior #I just personally find joy in imagining mundane healing stories :'))#jay gatsby #nick carraway #my words

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non-un-topo · 9 months ago

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Humble brags from this week because I feel really accomplished and proud of myself

2 months on T looks hot as hell on me and it feels even better. I was given a work/study student of the year award by my supervisor yesterday completely by surprise, and I also picked up a certificate of recognition for trans day of visibility from the student community & leadership development office at my school. I accepted my offer to work in the library over the summer (better $$ than I thought!) so I'll finally have a legit job after 5 years (and in a field I love)! I'm working on a course with one of my favourite profs and it's looking good -- I got to design my own syllabus so it's all about transmasculine theory & life writing, which will prep me for grad school if I so choose. My partner is graduating college and we're planning to do a grad trip in Montreal with our pals. All of my coworkers and peers have been so wonderful and kind and supportive since I've gone public with my transition (even the one who had a lot to learn -- she has come super far and I'm really grateful for her). And I just checked my GPA and it went up a little! 8.5/9, babeyy.

#maybe it's just because the sun is out and i'm at that Good Point in my -- eugh -- my cycle #also maybe i've been depressed and under too much stress too long lol because i want to feel suspicious #things are a little TOOOO good.... hmmmmmmmmm #no but i'm super happy. glad i'm still around and got through the bad shit. glad i'm getting further and further away from my teen years #daddy gets shit DONE #i need to actually stop calling myself daddy but no i won't. i'm the father of my 21 year old friend through-and-through #i just think it's funny for a pee-wee like me to call himself daddy. it's funny!!!#also my (favourite shh) coworker complimented my little moustache yesterday and i feel so SEEN

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coollyinterferes · 1 year ago

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*taps mic; a certain gentleman is standing right beside him*

"Good evenin', everyone!! We're back!! Hope you didn't miss us much!"

"It sure hasn't been that long.... has it....?"

Uhhmmm....

#[shows up late with no st*rb*cks bc fuck those guys but HIIIII 8) ]#[*insert 'haven't been here since last year joke*]#[no but fr AAAAA i'm so sorry abt the silence!! as usual depression got my ass around mid-december due to Some Stuff irl]#[from there it's been all downs and just a few ups so i've been taking it slow and trying not to let it all get to me (much)]#[anyways hi hi hi. how have y'all been doing???]#[super late but i hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season!!]#[also sending you all the best of wishes for the new year!!!]#[i might not be able to post thread replies tonight but i'll be around for a bit working on some of them]#[i think i also had some pending asks last time??? so i might try to start from there]#[dumb brain is still all BLERGH but feel free to send in stuff if you wish!]#[prompted. unprompted. random. etc. all is good]#[hope you're all having a wonderful day/night/etc!!! <3]#;speedwagon says (( ic ))#;jonathan says (( ic ))#;ic #(????

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oldmanpusspuss · 10 months ago

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I actually think I do tend to gravitate towards characters named James and I kinda wonder if it's because of latent mommy issues because my mom was named Jamie after her grandpa James who died when I was 4

#my mom was completely fucked up by my grandpas death he was like a dad to her #incidentally i think his death is also why i hate birthdays because he died a few days before mine and so every year around my bday my mom #would get super depressed and it ruined the whole thing for me

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cheriafreya · 11 months ago

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being a broke ass gamer is driving me 😀 C-R-A-Z-Y 😀